Nothing

Nothing

This is what could dare to compare itself to this feeling
Of feeling lost within yourself
Feeling unable to bear anything more

When you become a defenceless victim of this life
Having to leave your bed sometimes
Having to do anything at all

And you feel like your own, personal tormentor
doing things that make you able to live
Which is the last thing you are eager to

Somebody keep asking what disaster you encountered
Believing you need to have a reason
He should be grateful for incomprehension

You know the reason is locked somewhere inside
But nobody has ever reached so deeply
To grab it firmly and wrest out of you

What if it is an inseparable part of yourself?
Which makes you precious and respected
While being just a little unbridled

Happily it is possible to tame the inner demon
I just will devote some more time to it
As it starts to misbehave once again

Ripped to Shreds

Silence
Sometimes it’s the only stimulus to endure.
Just don’t be silent for too long…
Tomorrow I’ll be so lonely on my own.
Please keep me company
But remember to leave just on time
To give me some space to breathe
To plan the audacious conquest of the world

I’ll miss you all being brave
So please support me when I get back, exhausted
Just don’t become attached on no account
Watch out, you could scare me to death!
I got stressed out, so hug me closely
But then walk away, so I could be my true self
No, I don’t know her yet, why?

She seems a little bit lost
It’s hard to be on a roll all by yourself
Why are the people so fickle?
The desire to discover turns into the mortal sin
My youthful mistakes come so very mature
I’ll surely get where I belong
I can manage following the map ripped to shreds.

Blessing

Calming down slowly…
Starting to understand that less is more
Not everything needs to be said.

That’s a blessing
My silhouette becomes visible again
Persistent water on a mirror evaporates.

And first of all
I do not care so much already
Thanks God for a short memory.

I could even believe
It will all sort itself out in the end
I just need a day off.

Double Irony of Fate

Why do people always get in touch with us in the busiests moments
And then they vanish without a trace when we need them the most?

Why do we come up with thousands of ideas for activities while having no time for any
And then run out of ideas while being overwhelmed by our free time?

Why are we bedridden on the days when we crave to go out and stop thinking
And why are we always on the go when we wish to slow down and think for a while?

Why are we always affected by people that hurt us the most or don’t care at all
And meanwhile we totally ignore those who would do everything for us?

Why do we underestimate things that we surely possess
And overestimate those that we are about to loose or which we’ve never had?

Because at the end of the day every cloud has a silver lining
And we are grateful to each struggle for making us wiser and stronger.

Expedition

Hey there,

let me undress you tonight. Take off all this forced courtesy and come straight to the point. Don’t cover yourself with your protective masks and poses. For the first time be completely naked and unveil your true self.

Don’t be afraid, I’ll teach you everything. I know how it feels to be purely sincere, vulnerable and dependent on understanding and empathy. First times can be painful, so make sure that the person next to you was carefully selected.

As you are already in my shoes, let me be clear. Any meaningful relationship, no matter how you classify it, always consists of two souls, two minds, two hearts. They trust each other fully, like a climber and a belayer, being at both positions at the same time.

Now imagine what happens when one of those two lets go of the rope for his own convenience, without warning… Who cares that he is willing to grasp it again after a break he craved. The companion, to blame for his trust, got injured and does not understand anything at all.

I’ve never aspired to be a doll, easy to put back on the shelf when you are bored with it. I’m not a free-time toy, my personality makes me a climber. Now please make sure that you are ready and responsible enough to follow me to the high mountains, for a safe and mutually pleasant expedition.

Let’s Dance

It sounds.
You glance.
I smile.
We dance.

We express.
You lead.
I follow.
Breaths speed.

You gently touch.
It gives me thrill.
We open up.
Becoming real.

Few intense moments.
They gave us a wealth.
You are reborn.
I am myself.

Daydreaming

Hello, my dream…

Would you mind introducing yourself? I’m incredibly curious about you. Where do you come from? I bet you do not wander aimlessly.

Nobody is faceless nowadays. Could it perhaps be that you’re the involuntary envoy of my mind? From those… you know, the most closely guarded recesses? The ones that I do not want to confess to?

Do not insist on being anybody’s guess. One could mistake you for somebody else… Namely a mix of random, insignificant elements that accidentally appear in sleep… You wouldn’t like to be denuded of your sublimity, would you?

You are such a sealed book to me… Why don’t you lift the veil of secrecy and let me flick you through, page by page? I wish to research into your expectations, comprehend your mission. You intrigue me.

Just as people and events from the images you create – they are astonishing, puzzling, different… Only me tends to be the same, with familiar mindset, all my doubts, worries and innermost wishes.

You know me backwards and forwards. What if you decode everything all around as infallibly? I earnestly hope you play ball with me.

Share your wisdom, I beg you, and teach me to understand. Or if not, just go away and leave my anxious mind in peace.